I'm ready to write a bit about the effect of the gathering on me.
- It was disruptive because Mike--who was dynamic, energizing, helpful, knowledgable--has some very cool and adventurous plans and dreams, and he's actually doing them. And Taylor too. Both of their plans involve traveling away--so this gets me thinking about: (1) At the least getting up to LA before they leave, (2) having more adventurous adventures myself. In short--I was letting myself be distracted, not caring for my garden, and not sure what to do next.
- I got that response from Warren, and I replied.
- As mentioned there, I got to meditating on what was keeping me from staying in the forest.
- The gathering showed me that on some level I can be a leader (doesn't seem like the right word -- a channeler?/guider of energy? -- ) And value doing it. (Previously, my thinking has gone: I can practice some guiding skills--but why would I want to? My previous experiences guiding have not been all that rewarding. Check it out:
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- In meditating on "What Next?" -- and after perusing what some of the wonderful people near Portland are doing--and reading "Fight Club", I was reminded "It's up to me." If I wanted to I could organize events in SD like they have in Portland. We can go down to the SD River and make nets and so on.
- I was reminded why I don't do this. I really don't like moving around this urban environment.
- So: The next organizing I'll do will be in the forest.
I'm thinking of being in the forest (Los Padres National Forest) from May to September--and just following that intention where it leads (the longest I've lasted in the forest solo has been about 2 weeks--I'll be coming out that often to resupply at least).
I'm considering how to make myself contactable so that people can join me out there. I may eventually post a note at the online Communities Directory--continuing to develop the walking sangha idea.
Does anyone else want to share where they've got to in the last two weeks?
Peace,
Colin
